All Alone for the Week

Yesterday morning my husband, Sam, left Brooklyn for Houston for a week. Because of my new job and my various commitments at work next week, I was unable to accompany him. As jealous as I am that he got to go on a week vacation to our home state, he didn't really go for fun. Sam's mom is having a double mastectomy on Wednesday as part of her breast cancer treatment. It is important for Sam to be there, and I understand that, but I miss him terribly. Since Sam and I moved to NYC a year and a half ago, I have not spent a night alone here. Last night was my first night alone and I was not as scared as I assumed I would be. I was even brave enough to go out to the grocery store for food. You may be laughing at me being "brave enough" to venture out, so I'll break it down for you. I am a very independent person. I always have been. When I lived in Austin, I lived alone (prior to Sam, of course). I didn't need anyone and could take care of myself. However, NYC is a different beast all together. I don't really have a close group of friends that I can call on and I don't have family near by. So if anything were to happen to me, I don't really know who I would contact. There's a fear of being all alone that I assumed would overcome me this week.

However, I'm off to a good start. As hard as it was to fall asleep last night without Sam next to me, I also am experiencing a very strange feeling. It's almost as if I'm left at home alone when my parents went away for a few days. I get to watch what I want, which includes being an MTV junkie. I get to eat what I want. Yay, mac and cheese for every meal. I can stay at home on the couch doing basically nothing if I want (well, for the weekend, at least) and I can sit and read, or go to bed early, or sleep late. Not that I don't love being with Sam. That's not what I'm saying at all. But sometimes it's not fun to fight over the remote or worry that I'm ignoring him when I'm sitting on the couch reading.

My plan for today was to go shopping to purchase a pair of brown boots, but it seemed more fitting to sit on the couch watching Harry Potter. The new plan is to go shopping after work on Tuesday since I'll be at training in downtown Brooklyn near my shopping center. Tomorrow I'll be in orientation at work all day, training on Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday are full of meetings. And then there's Friday and then Saturday my Sam will be home.

And then there's Sam...spending the week with his family. He was able to take a little respite trip today to Austin to check in on our house (the renters), see our friends, have dinner with my parents and check in with work tomorrow. As much as I am completely jealous that he gets to spend the week with our precious puppies, I'm not necessarily jealous that he is with his family 24/7 for the next week. It might get pretty stressful for him.

So for all of you who believe in the power of prayer, please keep my mother-in-law in your thoughts. She goes into surgery on Wednesday morning. And please keep my husband in your thoughts...the stress of full-time family might make him crazy enough to snap. And stay tuned for the rest of the junk that I'll be both eating and watching this week.

So far:
Mac and Cheese for lunch and dinner
Pringles
Bagel Chips
M&M's
Coca Cola C2's (I rarely drink soda)